There is a wall that you will continue to come up against if you do not heal.

 

You might manage some seasons better than others, but I promise you that all the additions will never fill the space you’re ignoring.

 

For years, I was encouraged to heal some deep wounds. I refused because I had a dream I wanted to fulfill, and it was distracting me from the end goal.

 

What I didn’t understand was that it was part of my journey with Jesus and even part of the dream I was pursuing with Christ.

 

Some people gave me books and asked me to read them. I didn’t. I had Jesus and I ignored any possibility that I needed practical help too. What a mistake.

 

Because I wouldn’t stop long enough to get help and wise counsel, my long-term pain turned into PTSD. I had endured one trial after another and my body couldn’t take it anymore. This was the beginning of my healing…

 

Everywhere I turned, the Holy Ghost arrested me. My “Christian-ease” didn’t work anymore. My years in ministry didn’t matter. I was utterly weak in every way. Soon I would see how strong Jesus would show Himself in my own weakness.

 

If I had processed my pain properly in the beginning, I likely would have healed much sooner. But somehow in my head and past teachings I thought it best to hide my pain, stay silent, and pretend all was well.

 

Jesus in all of His goodness will not allow such a thing to continue. He is the healer, and it is, and was, important to Him that I would be whole again.

 

I could go only so long before coming face to face once again with that same wall. No matter how far I ran from it, it followed me until I turned with my hand in His and faced it head-on.

 

Then the wall began to fall and healing began to come.

 

Yes, I had to change the way I do some things. Yes, I’ve had to guard my heart better. Yes, I still have moments where that trigger point shows itself. But today, it has no hold. It has lost all power.

 

Whatever and wherever your pain is, today, God’s eye is right on it. He will not let you ignore it. He will not let you forget it. He will not let it keep you captive. He is a chain breaker who specializes in setting captives free. It’s simply what He does and who He is.

 

You’re going to need to be honest with where you really are. Find a safe place to process your pain. You’re going to need to plant your feet in a place of intentional healing. You will need to own every ounce of it. If you don’t…you’ll find the same wall I once did.

 

Let’s choose freedom in Christ and do the necessary work to be well.

 

May every wall that has erected itself against the plan God has for life fall in Jesus name.