…The just shall live by faith. (Habakkuk 2:4)

What tis thou complaint O’ Saint

Against the Righteous One

He’s waiting your honest heart

Come to His chambers and sup.

For Habakkuk told the Lord

The complaint that left him dry

And God did listen well

As the servant poured his cry.

Hide not that betraying wound

You feel God let you down

Your heart has winced in pain

Those waters, you’ve almost drowned.

But in His appointed time

He’ll explain with wisdoms rhyme

The beauty from the ashes

That brought the Kingdom nigh.

Perhaps it’s time to go

And tuck yourself away

So you and Christ can share

The truth, “You feel betrayed.”

For healing it is waiting

The just shall live by faith

And what you don’t know now

He’ll share with you someday.

I can fully understand the prophet’s heart cry. When you feel you have obeyed the Lord best as possible and set your full heart to trust Him and follow Him then a calamity befalls your own house. I, too, had such a season and for the longest I kept hidden in my heart the feeling that God had forsaken me in my darkest season. I still prayed and spent time with Him but He was always fishing for me to allow Him to put His finger on that unique pain.  I felt betrayed by the one whom I had given myself to. Loss upon loss entered my life and I felt I had no control. I was completely thrown off balance and said often, “What is going on?”

It was a season that was absolutely unexpected and it actually interrupted what I thought to be my greatest season of harvest with Christ. In terms of earthly losses and damage it was the most horrendous season I’ve ever experienced. Yet, from a spiritual perspective, I graduated to a place with Christ and His Kingdom work that had been unknown to me, personally. My Valley of Achor (Trouble) really did turn into a door of hope.

I am still learning the ways of trusting. I do not always find it easy and I submit to you that the greatest test of all is trusting when His answer opposes our own.

I have had to take many complaints before the King so that He could help my heart. There is no need to hide our complaints against God from Him. He knows the struggle and sees it fully.

Take every ounce of it to Him…