It’s always difficult for a mercy heart as we walk this journey with Jesus. For we love so very deeply and often get wounded much. I’ve spent countless hours with the Lord on this very topic as I hear many voices sharing in this hour of pain. I received a late call this week while working of a woman in dire heart ache…wrestling with Jesus and her pains from the past. Many left to fend for themselves to pick up all the pieces of brokenness and to have courage to dream again.

I am able to share with them due to my own valley seasons that were fruitful for the deep training of my Father. It is surely the way He makes warriors. Love can be shallow when need arises in our world today.  Yet this is exactly the life with Christ. Laying it all down….one for another. If we are not careful the aches of life could leave us in deep despair as difficult seasons approach. For we often misunderstand His hand. The Lord has had to work with me much on expectations as I hold open doors for others who may never hold one open for me. It cannot be my concern… for it is not my business….mine is only to continue with healthy boundaries and the willingness to still love deeply despite the observations Christ allows me to see.

I find the prophetic heart attached to one of mercy is often misunderstood; for there is a distinct difference in gifts  of the Lord and often rather than knowing how to work fruitfully with others of varying gifts, we tend to shy away from them, or perhaps in some cases, misjudge them altogether.

Certainly, Satan is faithful with arrows of competitiveness in the body of Christ. However; perhaps, even these are merely times of a simple and necessary “walking alone” that occurs as Christ is moving you down a different path than others. Oh yes… I do believe the Lord created us for fellowship but most I’ve gleaned from in the scriptures ,as well as and in practicality today, will go through a season of “walking alone.” Often this is during a repositioning in which a separation occurs. Often we do not understand this happening and can be left in a bewilderment for some time. Going from glory to glory has at times a dark hallway……a valley of Baca…..or a desert road.

Neither path is wrong as paths go…they are simply different. Of course in the midst of those times it feels much like rejection or abandonment and you will find yourself pouring over the scripture…”I find myself like a Sparrow alone on the rooftop.” Such a strange, yet purposed, analogy. You see sparrows are very social birds and rarely would be alone on a rooftop unless… their nests …and/or their young were destroyed and also if they had lost their mate recently. Does either apply to you today friend?

Such a tragic scene to David that surely caught his attention as he sorrowed a life on the run from one he loved deeply. What heart ache as he entered into the life of the lonely Sparrow on the rooftop. Yet his rooftop had become a dark cave of refuge and isolation. Not exactly where he estimated an anointed King to be in this hour. But God was with him.

The heart of the great worshiper and warrior broken from the grief of loss and yet his prophetic psalms rained down and his mercy poured at each turn of chance to take the life of his enemy. He could not…. for his love was still deeply rooted despite the pain. Oh how he must have desired the Lord to change his circumstance.

In this we see a life with Christ and a life like Christ… still loving deeply and offering never-ending mercy.

This is the life we must choose. A life I pray is worked into me daily. Through each sorrow, betrayal, abandonment, grief, deep ache, and pulsing wound… through every loss, every wrong turn, every rejection, and each moment of lifting up others higher than yourself…still we offer the unwavering deep love and mercy that was given us each. Still we hold open the doors for others to enter their moment of destiny. Still we drag the wounded and ill into the healing pool…even if it causes us a delay as we wait upon our own turn.

Hold on mercy hearts … just hold on our God is a finisher…

June 23, 2017