I wrote this song several years ago and have never recorded it. As the Lord has led me to begin a “Song Book” portion of my blog, I will be pulling moments with Jesus out from throughout the years that have never been seen or heard. These moments birthed songs with Him. With Christ, it’s never been ultimately about a song in and of itself but about the message He is sending through melody. This song was called “I am Not Unaware.” I wanted to share it’s meaning and truth today. It’s as relevant to me today as when He first gave it to me.

Rarely do we consider Satan’s perspective. Much of the time we ponder all else but his ways. The Bible tells us not to be unaware of Satan’s schemes. I read the Screwtape Letters by C.S Lewis some time ago. Very interesting to think of the maneuverings of the principalities. It seems our natural minds forget there are very real demons, forget Satan accuses the brethren day and night at Heaven’s throne, and somehow we fail to realize that our daily choices may very well open the door for the enemy to walk right in. Sometimes Satan waits quietly outside the prayer closet…for that exact opportunity to squeeze through any cracks we knowingly or unknowingly allow.

I am learning still to be on guard, yet I find such weakness in certain areas of my life and heart. It seems the arrow shoots over and over aimed at precisely the same spot. Just as there is a pattern of Christ’s way with me in my life, so is there a pattern to Satan’s ways with me. He will be different with each of us because we each have our own “Achilles heel.” Trust me…he knows EXACTLY where it is for you and where it is also for me.

He can stir a memory, a pain, a wound at exactly the right time to catch you off guard. Yet we are not to be unaware says the Lord. I am finding for me to be able to understand my enemy will help me understand my battle in this area. I, Shelly, have to apply practically the Word to this target spot that the enemy relentlessly aims at. Only when he sees that my reactions to his ways are firm in Christ will he move on. I have also found that there is no heroic manner in ignoring the fact that this occurs or that it affects us. There is not strength in silence but strength in letting Christ use it for good and shine light on it. You may can keep it hidden for a few seasons but the suppression will manifest eventually because it was never dealt with. Healing is a progressive work….and it is a deep work. It is a work that requires vulnerability as well…a willingness to acknowledge our weaknesses so that even the weakness is turned over to Christ on the altar that He may teach us through it and show us how much we need Him every hour.

It will never be enough to simply carelessly “wade through it” and in some cases we will have to “confess one to another that we may be healed.” We at times will need such a covering of prayer warriors who know when and how the enemy is after us…those willing to stand with us. In this we will also have to be willing to swallow any pride, shame, or embarrassment of such harassment to ask for help in prayer from others. I can tell you today that the assaults on my own mind and heart are greater today than when I began with Christ some years ago. I need covering more today than I did then. My friends..this is a war..a war that has been won yet still must be fought..and in war you must have a strategy against  your enemy. Do not take it lightly…

“I Am Not Unaware”
© Shelly Wilson Music/3:20 Publishing, SESAC
Songwriter: Shelly Wilson

Quietly I come for you
hoping that the scales cover your eyes…this time
you’re caught up in my nasty web
full of whispering doom and empty lies
will she see me this time?

I aim for your weakness
nothin new under the sun…I’ve studied you.
Steal, kill, destroy
the only thoughts running through my mind
will you see my disguise?

Chorus:
But she is not unaware, no.. she’s not deceived
she’s been in that closet of hers, where He taught her to believe…
She’s ready for battle, equipped for this war
His Word is hidden in her heart, and it’s time to draw her sword
No she’s not…………no she’s not… unaware………………………….

I toss another snare….old schemes
Only different clothes I wear.. subtly
She’s let her mind go where it can’t
and her heart maybe has finally strayed… from Him

I’ve covered her up in work,
distractions that seem good….but aren’t from Him.
Her faith, a casual glance;
her step is swifter, will she rest…in Him.

Chorus:
But she is not unaware, no.. she’s not deceived
she’s been in that closet of hers, where He taught her to believe…
She’s ready for battle, equipped for this war
His Word is hidden in her heart, she knows it’s time to draw her sword
No she is not unaware………………………….

Bridge:
Sometimes the door is open wide
sometimes in secret I just hide…and wait…and wait..
Will she be faithful on her knees, can I keep her just too busy …today.
Then I watch her enter in
the Holy presence of Him
and she’s changed….oh she’s changed..

Chorus:
No she is not unaware, no.. she’s not deceived
she’s been in that closet of hers, where He taught her to believe…
She’s ready for battle, equipped for this war
His Word is hidden in her heart, and His angels draw their swords
No she is not unaware………………………….

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2 Corinthians 2:11

..in order that Satan might not outwit us. For we are not unaware of his schemes. (NIV)

..Lest Satan should get an advantage of us: for we are not ignorant of his devices. (KJV)

..so that we would not be outwitted by Satan; for we are not ignorant of his designs.  (ESV)