There is but only one to which I must answer. Only one who can call me out of the quiver. It is His will that I must be sure I’m surrendering to.

 

If selfish ambition has gained any control at all in my heart, it could be a devastating moment, indeed.

 

For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice. (James 3:16)

 

Vile can be described as “slight, ordinary, mean, worthless, of no account; ethically, bad, wicked)

 

Selfish ambition is a slave driver. It leads us into self-imposed wildernesses where we thought we’d get a “leg-up” but instead get a schooling of the lasting kind.

 

I’ve learned to wait for the King’s orders. Be sure He will be traveling that mountain with me. Should I insist on going alone, then alone I shall be.

 

Nothing is quite as frightening as realizing your flesh led you rather than the Spirit of God.

 

There have been many times just a few minutes upon my arrival that I knew I had not been summoned to the meeting by God, only by man. Every time I realized my woe, I pleaded for mercy confessing my error.

 

My “Yes” is used far fewer times in these last days to be sure I am being sent and assigned.

 

My ego has had to die. My heart has had to be silenced. My personal desires have had to be severed entirely if it is not the will of God.

 

In His kindness, He has covered me at times, yet in other times, He has allowed me such a failure of His presence that I might never barrel out the door to some flesh feeding escapade ever again.

 

For He knows the wickedness of my deceptive heart, and so do I.

 

So death it is in order to live

Power is only given by Him

And if there’s no rain

What a waste of terrain

Nowhere without Him shall I tread.