For some time there has been a stirring of my soul. One I could not put my finger on or even clearly understand. Discernment seemed muddy and cloudy…not clear and precise as other times. Certainly the possibility of confusion from the enemy… A nagging thought, pull of the heart, and at times a deep grieving…yet I have not been able to understand why. I am use to restlessness when God is about to do something..when it’s time to move..there comes that word again..”change.” It seems this time I wanted to ignore it, rationalize it, set it aside. The truth is I have grown a bit weary to change and longed for some stability….normalcy. As if there is such a thing with Christ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Our idea of normal is totally not HIS!

For a few years He has taken me deeper into His heart to learn more of His Word..His supernatural ways…His longings. He has increased my Faith by revealing Himself as Jehovah Jireh in a time of provisional need. He has swept me away to a prayer closet in a cemetery to show me how much life is among the dead if we simply open our eyes and He has shown me the vastness of ELOHIM! He has burdened me with a message for a church that has lost the sense of His wonder and denied His supernatural power for the sake of man made tradition…and poured into me a love for girls of all ages that humanly was not there or is even possible? He has used them to teach me..and me to teach them. For there are literal ways to show Jesus to a little one that us big folks have snubbed a nose to:) He is the prince charming, knight in shining armor..the Dream Giver…the rainbow rider..the sky painter..the love letter deliver-er.. the weak chooser..the divine healer..and the heavenly song writer. He is the way maker..the heart stealer..the mighty deliver-er..and the passionate chaser.. The loudest Cheer-er..The quiet whisper..the belly laugher..and best tickler:) He is the fire giver..the dance partner..the front row watcher…the beautiful redeemer. The risk-taker…chance giver…2nd chance giver..and 3rd chance giver. He is the righteous maker..the new name giver…the burden bearer..and the bestest friend ever! The rain maker…star thrower…smile giver..and master physician..shall I go on???

“So why the hold up on obedience Shelly”…as I stare at the art work from the DQK girls. Seems I had found extras that I had yet to hang in our Studio. But today the words pierced my heart. “You know the drill. Obedience brings blessings..Disobedience brings pain! “(3 times in 3 days these words were brought in front of my eyes..that is a lot of mercy for God to give 3 times the warning..3 times the exact words!) It’s the moment you realize the subtle disception of the heart. For the heart is ever a deceiver! Do not trust it! The heart wants to make logical sense of things. Have a perfect order to it all. I was pondering the word “Calling.” We seem to make a habit of talking about our “callings.” Yet Esther never fretted over whether her “calling” was women or girls..this or that..she merely obeyed daily His requests put before her. WHAT???????????? Jonah…Jeremiah..Paul…David….all the same. Daily obedience was all it was about. They spent no time pondering the whys? the wheres? the whos? They simply went where He said to go…spoke what He said to speak..and to the people He said to speak it to. He said “Go” and they went. Simple isn’t it? You would think so. But then our hearts get attached and we put down deep roots and we simply want to stay where we are..with who we are with..and we get comfortable. Safe. But truth is we are no longer safe when we have chosen to remain..we are no longer under His winged protection. He out of mercy gives nudges, warnings, promptings…but we choose what we see as safe. We stay. Delayed obedience is still disobedience. Holding off the readily available blessings that arise upon obedience through faith. Can He still use us…yes. Does He understand our struggle..yes. But we very well could forfeit some of the blessings He had planned for us.

So today we choose obedience..in all things. Even when it makes no sense. Even when it is not popular. Even if you go it alone. As I laid my head on the pillow last night He graciously gave me a heart yearning….from His heart to mine..and now to yours. Remember the old song “Wherever He leads I’ll go?” Do you really mean it when you sing it? I hope I do…Wherever never looks like I thought it would. But we are called to drink from His cup..not our own.

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Soar…

(written by Jesus & Shelly Wilson)

There is but a detour that crushes thy soul

From which one may wonder can I pay such a toll?

As a rainbow shines perfect shortly after a storm

The blessings of obedience sprouts flowers once more.
His will is often wrapped in the love of pain

To polish and push thru heaven’s refrain

His eyes they are near yet they see till the end

Potential not gained until thou has been sent.

To the ends of the earth a promise I’d go

Yet never I thought it would be all alone.
For thy nest has been torn and laid comfortless for thee

That I would then soar to thy destiny..
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Love MUCH!